i dont know what more i can do to defend myself . it feels like no matter how much time passes , or how many times i talk things through & resolve them with people , im still only seen for my past mistakes . i genuinely dont understand how i became the center of so much discussion , & im truly exhausted by it . ive apologized multiple times , reflected on what i did , & taken responsibility where i was wrong . i made changes & corrected my behavior , & the situation was resolved - we both moved on . i havent brought it up or repeated it , because i learned from it & did better . whats frustrating is being constantly criticized for something i already acknowledged & fixed . im open to communication , apologizing & fixing my mistakes with others if you are willing to just tell me - my dms on discord are always open , & ive said that multiple times . im always willing to talk things out directly , which is what i have done multiple times in the past & am always willing to do for people with differing perspectives from me . if theres something else ive done wrong that im not aware of , please just tell me so i can understand & continue working on myself . i want to be better , but i cant if i dont know what ive done wrong . im just tired of being defined by things ive already taken responsibility for & moved past .

recently , a doc has been made - & shortly deleted - about a 15 year old named ' alexander ' ( previously usernames @two , @they , @ink & @bake ) . in the document , anonymous users showed cropped & out of context screenshots revolving about the things that alex has said & done .
the entire document is left out of context & full with straight - up lies . the document was made by alex ' s groomer , lily ( previously @bakura )
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lily groomed alex into saying the things that he did . his mental state during the entirety of this summer was low , & due to lily being his girlfriend & the closest person he had during these times - he would come to her to vent . during these vents , he would show unhealthy behaviour that shouldn ' t have been normalised or encouraged . but lily did both of these things to alex . she would constantly encourage the rants & the unhealthy behaviour that alex was showing , saying that it was fine & what he was doing should be normalised . this worsened alex ' s mental state , making him incredibly hateful & would constantly have breakdowns triggered . lily has never tried to correct his behaviour & confront him , & instead enabled him & encouraged him further into doing the things that he did . this includes the scamming . this includes the screenshots where he mentions abuse & threats . this includes everything in the document .

lily would also send multiple sexual things to alex . always remarking about how she was humping her bed while texting him , & would go into detail about the things that she felt when seeing bakura , dyle or any of her f/os . lily has also humped her bed on call with alex , muting herself so he wouldn ' t hear her & notice the things she was doing during the call . lily has shared multiple of her sexual desires to alex , often talking about her kinks & the things that she wanted to do with bakura . she would go into extreme detail about these things ... ( such extreme detail that i don ' t think i can even mention )
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lily has groomed & lovebombed alex during the entirety of this relationship so he could trust her , enabled unhealthy behaviour & warped alex ' s actions , personality & thought process - then proceeds to make a doc trying to frame alex as the bad guy , when he wouldn ' t have done any of the things that were put against him if it weren't for lily .

alex isn ' t a bad person , he was groomed . he takes all accountability for his actions , however .

clearing things up :

• alex ' s hatemail message to a person called " juno " was real . however , alot of context has been pushed & went unmentioned . juno is a groomer apologist who has ruined the life of alex ' s best friend . he wanted to hatemail her , but due to his friend being scared - he had to make the message about sprout . he never wanted it to be about sprout , & it wasn ' t about sprout in the first place .

• the threatening of " leaking info " that alex spewed out to lily during one of his mental breakdowns wasn ' t about her personal information or about doxxing her . it was about the aforementioned sexual messages & kinks that she sent to alex .

• alex never pressured lily into staying silent . it was the opposite . lily has suicidebaited alex multiple times & talked about her suicide plan when he was trying to confront her about the document .

• alex isn ' t transphobic . lily took everything out of context & purposefully chose to frame him as the bad guy in this situation , alex asked why sprout was a girl because he was genuinely curious . it wasn ' t done out of harm .

• alex isn ' t racist , either . he is a lightskin black . anything that he says , he can reclaim . he has explained this to lily when providing her the picture of his face , & lily chose to ignore it .

• quite literally nobody knows who the fuck " grok " is & how this person is relevant .

since we are on the topic of alexander ( formerly @bake ) being a crappy person , i feel like this is time to explain why i originally blocked @bakura , his boyfriend . (?) @bakura actively interacted with me at one point , while he knew i had him blocked on spring , for actively defending karube ( jian's groomer ) on revolt . he lied to me about his identity - & when i confronted this behavior his excuse was " i thought you knew & we set our differences aside . " please spread & read the following screenshots for more context if needed .

• https://files.catbox.moe/00ex6b.png
• https://files.catbox.moe/rcggwd.jpg
• https://files.catbox.moe/81xsaq.jpg
• https://files.catbox.moe/2beroa.jpg
• https://files.catbox.moe/akxpon.jpg ft. the image that was "edited" by the way
• https://files.catbox.moe/0sl43c.jpg

while im here , heres the karube doc full of information if you werent around when this freak of nature was active . https://docs.google.com/document/d/15xGII8l5whrT-MycF4gn__xN6-3omEN7hZ7-7YTVf8Q/preview

thank you for reading .